Washed Away

I cannot explain the breaking up of my heart, yet here again I stand upon the parapet out stretched high about the sea of tears. Spinning around in an endless whirl of disappointments and lost expectations, wondering whether it was fair, right, or wrong. The indifference of it all is sharp and pointed like a knife piercing the tender throbs of the heart. I stand here in the rain of shame with no covering to hide my face. I am cold and shiver like the north wind that chafes the unprotected cheeks and lashes harshly again and again leaving red puffy welts.

If surgery could be performed to remove my beating heart and leave me yet alive, I would have it removed and placed in a secret place to where none would every prey upon it again. I would have it locked away until the pain of this misery were forgotten. But this is foolishness. How would one learn to live through the downs of life? We cannot just run away from that which we do not wish to face, no matter the unpleasant circumstance may be. The Demons may come but they will not hold control over us lest we bid them to. Bitterness mixed with sweetness in the taste of an apprehensive goodbye stings in the aftermath of the decision made and words that were said. The flood of emotions washes over the soul. I just want to be washed away along with the tide and forgotten with the humiliating truth of being played for a fool.


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What U Need 2 Know

What U Need 2 Know

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Current Thought

Current Thought

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Spring Flowers

Spring Flowers

In Bloom

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I have come to despise these quirky aggravations and slurs of the speech
These little slips of the tongue that are quick to divide the harmony and take bitterness inside
These lies and rumors that are spread like wild fire and has caught the wind
No respect for those who are in authority or have a position that needs acknowledgment
This generation in which we live is a me first mentality and takes not responsibility for what one has done
People are quick to get so offended over the silliest of things, they remain slaves to how they hinder themselves
And hinder so many possibilities and opportunities for profitable gain
My country is falling apart as our leaders point the finger, no one will admit their faults and mistakes in poor choices
The disgrace has fallen on those who deserve honor, their names are torn down and mocked with distain
Where are the brave ones who will stand up for what is right no matter the cost even the cost of life
Where are the courageous to stand in the face of adversity and defy those who are wrong
Where are the gentle to persuade those who have turned astray and bring them back into the right of light
Where are the heroes of great moving speeches who taught us morals and the cost that brought the freedom of speech
How is it that ignorance is the rule of the land and poverty of soul and mind consumes the vain soul
Violence is the normality of the day and peace is a dream or song sung in a forgotten lullaby
Our children are lazy and expect things to be handed to them because they believe you owe it to them
Work is a joke and play is the thing to do
Who cares what goes on in the world as long as my world and my things I want to do are not disrupted
And I have to pay attention to you
Lady Liberty begins to weep and who will dry her tears
The blood of the past begins to cry out
History does indeed repeat itself only in different forms and different times
Different people but they all have the same mind
Poverty to the soul
Poverty to the mind
Poverty to the body
Poverty to the heart
Life has become so vain and filled with shallow people
O for a man of substance and conviction
A man of true grit and honor
That would dress by the code of truth and integrity
Is there such a man or woman who would still fly the colors of freedom

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Lady in White

Lady in White

Tantalizing mysterious seemingly extremely to dubious in the least
Its almost scandalous being the way you are
How you capture the rapture of every ones attention
So delirious and out of everyone league
They all want to be with you and stand by your side
You walk with such confidence and yet you are shy
How can this be you amaze me, your eyes the way you stare of into another world, what is it that you see that I can’t
The sound of your voice is hypnotizing makes me want to fall asleep at the command of your word
The quick with the wit of your mind as you tease surprises me and takes me back at your bold amusing laugh
Your smile is the poison that kills me
I joy at the thought at you being right here but you are so far from anything but close yet so dear
You laugh is amusing with pure delight
Its hard not to notice how you capture the light yet a shadow of some kind falls across your face
Some dark secret to withhold and not divulge
And yet it somehow eludes the presence of anything that is troubling you from within
You eyes dance with pleasure and allure to the soul
Though I can see a faint tear stain upon your lovely cheek
Its hard not to notice this feeling that is growing on me more
Tantalizing mysterious and seemingly dubious
Causes such a delirious delight of emotion and comfort to be in your company
What is the thought of your enchanting mind
Your silence is calming yet unsettling at to what you may do or say next
How can you cast such a spell over me and I am helpless as I watch your every move
You are the phantom that moves silently yet I hear your steps coming so softly
Tantalizing mysterious and seemingly dubious
How you confuse and delight with a passion
Confident in everything you do
Yet so quiet and gentle its hard to overlook
Your eyes speak you mind and pierce through my heart
It’s all so tantalizing and mysterious and seemingly dubious
How you capture with rapture my every attention
~ Jasmine Alexia Jordan

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If I could see you again, I would ask for your forgiveness.
If I could see you again, I would pray for the strength to look you in the eye and try not to cry.
If I could see you again, I would tell you I was wrong for everything that happened and it was my stubborn pride that broke us apart.
But I would be lying to say the fault was all mine, but does it matter whose fault it really was now?
A night long ago looking up at stars high above and saying till the stars fall down…
I laugh ever so bitterly and full of regret and shame
I cover my face and weep in the night, how foolish was I to fall into such a stupid trap of words meaningless and knowing all the while this crush would not last
But hear me now if you dare, I know I brought down the stars that night and the heavens were blackened against me
I am the fiend that haunts your dreaded memories and the curse word that you spit out of your mouth
I am the vile devil that made you think you had me and then laughed in your face
I am the breaker of many hearts and the girl that sits here alone tonight remembering my faults and wishing them gone
I live with the shame of my great embarrassment while you live your life seemingly well off and in grand style
Oh, how I smile with disgust now at realizing who and what you are now as you played the part of the wounded victim
And how I fell for your dazzling smile, Your brown eyes so empty and haunting, in want of something
To be free from pain and sorrow
Searching for one to come to your rescue only to mock them once you captured them in your allure of charisma and dashing physic
Where are you today? I do not know…I almost wish to know but danger would follow soon after such a foolish fantacy
So If you are reading this right now or in the future someday…
I know the stars have fallen, the heart is broken, tears have been shed, words have been voiced and bitter resentment has grown up in the belly for my very name that brings such hated memories…
If I could see you, I would asked for your forgiveness, I know I do not have a right to ask it of you, but please forgive me for what I did and said…I never meant to hurt you
Please Forgive Me….The Fool

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Having Dignity

Seeing someone after you have had to say goodbye to or let go in your life is never quite the same. There is always that awkwardness that follows. You’re not sure if you can talk to them or even look them in the eye. When you see them does your heart jump and then hit rock bottom right after, that pain of guilt or regret in how things ended, the remembrance of words that were said or not said but thought of when you were with them before the goodbye. I often wonder how things would have been if things had not happened or if they were even done different. However, when it comes right down to it, you cannot change what transpired and you just have to let it go. Funny, it’s easier said than done to just let it go. They say that there will be a day when you wake up and all the pain your heart is feeling after seeing that person who once was dear and maybe even still dear to your heart, will pass away. That’s when you know they are happy and you can move on knowing that even though you cannot see or talk to them right now, maybe one day in the future you will be able to sit down with them and be the best of friends again but for now…now you have to say goodbye and have the grace to let them go with dignity and respect.

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If There was a Way…

If there was a way I could reach you tonight
I would come as fast as I as might
Knowing that tonight while you sleep …… please I hope you are dreaming of me
I miss your dancing laughing eyes
You smile that makes me warm inside
I miss the way your voice sounds so tender and gentle, such a rhythmic calm
That brings a peace to my heart
I miss you deeply and I wish I could be with you
Knowing that you are close by…………. I hate the distance that divides
I wish for some comfort, some sign of your mind
But hush and silence follows…………. such hollowness brings shuttering of an unsteady beat
This one is for you if you read my words………. perhaps I love you………….perhaps its just a phantom of wants
But the heart wants what is wants sometimes…………. I wonder what yours wants
How often I look up to the moon and wonder if you are looking too
Perhaps its just a foolish game, a foolish notion of a foolish girl
Speak to me and let me know……….. let me in………… or just let me go
If I am not the one you want then please let us speak our peace and be done
Listen to the eyes that speak many things
The shut mouth is enticing to kiss the lips of a forbidden lover
Precious is the time and the tie that binds
But if its not meant to be then be gone for all time
I would not waste or wish to waste emotions that are not meant for you and me
Such a path of misery would it be and cast us out in blots of pains
Such nonsense is just vain
Speak the truth and let it come forth
Hold not back if things are not so
Let my words come across to you and let them be what reaches you
Then come to me while I sleep and enter into my dreams and let us speak plainly of what is to be
For when the dawn rises upon us our worlds will fade away until another night comes our way

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